Your soul suspended in the air. Your soul outside of your body, isolated, separated from yourself. An undulating force of exhaustion so strong that your flesh automatically collapses. A series of muffled whispers with every dawn; inaudiable by choice. The denial of your own fatigue. The gratifying suppositions. The alterations. The distortions. The jubilation followed by a systemic descent to familiar depths. The physical detection of sinking. The inspiration. An unspoken despair. The limits of language. The insufficiency of expression. Your utopian desire to select your own memories. The unwillingness to adjust. The necessity to reject resisting. The acceptance. The tumbling. That masochistic longing. The realization of deep flaws. The incapacity to recover. The inexplicable sensation of air suspension when your weightlessness becomes apparent. The distance. The distance of years. The passing of moments. The unstoppable conduction of time. Seconds. Minutes. Hours. Days. Weeks. Years. The inconsolable cry for an immediate end. A ghostly reunion. The impossibility of a pleasant finale. The escape. The quest. The eternal introspection. The absurdity, the selfishness.
A shift.
The growth. The autonomy. The shell around your heart for protection. The prospect of emotional independence. The liberation. The jubilation without conditions. The beauty of birth and the celebration of death. The long term gain. The anticipated glory. The manifestation of insight. The assimilation. The learning. The incorporation. The rearrangement of priorities. The momentary lows. The extended highs. The clarity. The peace. The justice. The recognition. The materialization. The strength. The confidence. The indifference. The channeling. The necessary compartmentalization. The excitement. The new companions. The beautification. The liberation through discipline. The knowledge. The accomplishments. The goals. The aspirations. The elevations. The unbinded pleasures. The logic. The reason. The cleansing. The softening of the heart. The understanding. The compassion. The divergent path. The farewell.
